Monday, November 05, 2007 9:07 PM
today .. was just a bad day for me. i think it's one of the worst i've ever had. i feel so drained; physically, emotionally and mentally.
it started off really bad, with kenneth fong as my macroeconomics teacher. i will agree it's our fault to talk during class in the first place, but what's with his long speeches and stuff? =.= ..
and i'm intending to have a really peaceful class, and not have any disputes or backstabbing among us. so .. if any of you guys are offended by the event today, please just forgive and forget okay? i think none of us meant harm. cheers. (:
i don't know what to say and i don't really know how to be myself in front of you again. it's like .. i feel so cheated. or is it just me over-reacting? i don't know. i feel like the bad person now, and i really hate feeling that way. or maybe i just won't do anything about it. care less, they say. maybe then i won't be feeling this horrible now.
thanks
james for keeping me company. (: even thought you zhao-ed to
kaiwen in the end .. haha. and thanks to tpsu subcomms for all those laughters in the lounge. (:
hmm, i've been entrusted with the task of organizing a subcomm gathering for tpsu, along with hadi and xiao ming. so hopefully i leave them with a positive impression of myself. (:
details will be up at a later date, but it should be held at about late november? (:
thanks
junhui and
ciu fen for helping me print the notes, and
jashawn for lending me your correction tape, etc. (:
i didn't go for sociology lecture in the end. talked alot to
grace though, which i believe is more fruitful than going for that lecture. hahaha.
thanks girl, for trying to listen even though you're facing so many stuff yourself. you know, i'm just so lost by myself and i can't make decisions. so really, thanks for hearing all my rantings. (: please know that i'll always always be here for you. take cares. friends forever. <3
oh, also thanks
kev for the laptop. (: thanks for being able to trust me with your $2700 laptop. =p heh. appreciated! (:
i love the corn flakes thing @ a1. and i miss the mango smoothie @ the crepes place. boooo. soon soon!
so i sent
grace home. and i started getting this splitting headache. nevermind .. went to the bus stop, and missed my bus number 30. waiting for another 40 minutes before the next 30 came. and to make you feel worse, two of bus 30 came together. =.=
and it's like you're not drained out by everything enough. on bus 225, out of nowhere a bee appeared right in front of me. .. =.=
nevermind .. reached my floor, and i saw a grasshopper/cricket? wah, what the hell i tell you.
HOW MANY TIMES MUST I REPEAT! OMG! i hate insects!! truly, madly, deeply!
and to
you. i miss you. i miss all those times we spent just chatting about our lives. i really appreciated all the little thoughts and efforts from you in the past, and wish that everything is still the same now. i wish you had more time for me. i wish i am still that little sister in your heart, one whom you've showered so much love and concern on. am i still..? maybe it's just me being too egoistic, but i just wanna feel that you still want me in your life, not just the other way round..
misses.
i have dance tomorrow at night. and meeting with tpsu's ex-cos on wednesday. hope everything goes fine. (:
my wrist hurt like mad today.
thoughts for today:you've been all my confidence. i feel like i'm nothing good enough in front of everyone; everyone but you ..all those have become used-to-be`s and nothing more. there will be no one there for me like you always do anymore.it sucks when you get too fair; when you treat me just like anyone else ..
EDITED
thanks to eyecandy for cheering me up! (: who has such nice eyecandies man .. -fortunate me- ((:
and yah! thanks to meimei! for that sweet message. (: really thoughtful of you. (:
